Day trip materials.
風 Wind (by samyaoo 山姆搖).
Feeling like no one gets the magnitude, the implicit fear, the anxiety of this.
Feeling like no one wants to even try.
They say if you never try, you’ll never know. So for not trying, you’ll never understand my heart and my snake-filled stomach tonight. You can’t.
I just wish you would try because I could use some ‘knowing’.
you are allowed to terminate toxic relationships
you are allowed to walk away from people who hurt you
you are allowed to be angry and selfish and unforgiving
you don’t owe anyone an explanation for taking care of yourself
"But my heart is an old house
(the kind my mother
grew up in)
hell to heat and cool
and faulty in the wiring
and though it’s nice to look at
I have no business
inviting lovers in."